EVERYWHERE I GO, THERE WILL BE MY BOYS RALAND AND DEVON.
maybe it seems to you far away but our hearts are bound together Nothing can separate my love for you not distance, circumstance, or the call of our heavenly father,Distance can't separate the love I have for you Proud that you're my mother and I'm very thankful too You're right here in my heart close where you belong When I'm thinking of youmy heart just sings a song Thank you mom for your love for being there when i needed you,for shareing the special times we shared together in our kitchen,for your tender loving care when i kept you up all night with a toothache or a runny nose,you were there you didnt care you had no sleep you told me everything will be ok hush my son its time to sleep even though you can not see me I am here right beside you I am with you mummy I am the first thing you see on a summers day ,Im in the rain when it falls I am in the rainbow I am all around as i am always carried in your heart like you i will carry you in mine LOVE YOUR SON 4 LIFE, RALAND
I love you Raland so Much you are my Everything, you endured all my firsts with me , you will always be my constant!! love mummy
He went to HOPE LUTHERAN CHURCH where the Pastor Jared and him had a good connection with each other. Raland use to go to him about God and other things that was on his mind. He will be truly be missed at the church. He will be missed every where, NO ONE could ever take his place in this world. He was such a good person. God let him go because because he truly was an Angel. It may be our lost but heaven has gained a WONDERFUL person.
~ R.I.P Raland We all LOVE and miss you ALOT!!~
This goes to you RaRa. From me to you....I think of you everytime i hear this song.
"We Belong Together"
When you left I lost a part of me It's still so hard to believe Come back baby please We belong together Who else am I gonna lean on When times get rough Who's gonna talk to me on the phone Till the sun comes up Who's gonna take your place There ain't nobody better We belong together
I can't sleep at night When you are on my mind Bobby Womack's on the radio Singing to me 'If you think you're lonely now' Wait a minute This is too deep, too deep I gotta change the station So I turn the dial Trying to catch a break And then I hear your voice I only think of you And it's breaking my heart I'm trying to keep it together But I'm falling apart I'm feeling all out of my element I'm throwing things Crying Trying to figure out Where the hell I went wrong The pain reflected in this song Ain't even half of what I'm feeling inside I need you Need you back in my life baby
~Mariah Carey
BY THE GRACE OF GOD OF GOD HE LIVES THRU YOU AND ME. RALAND RASHAD 90-05
This memorial website was created in the memory of Raland Rashad Brown who was born in Queens, New York on February 16, 1990 @ 8:22 a.m. and passed away on April 13, 2005 at the age of 15. He was murdered. Raland was shot at close range in the chest with an air rifle. His murderer still walks free and it pains me to know it and not be able to do a thing about it but, VENGEANCE IS MINE SAYETH THE LORD. I will love him and miss him for the rest of my life. Raland means the world to me he was/is my Life. HE IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. His family and friends will remember him forever. He was a aspiring rap artist and was destined to be big when he got older. He was the greatest son a mother could have a loving big brother, friend, nephew, cousin, an all around good person. We will never forget him for as long as we live. In our hearts he will stay forever. We all love and miss him so so so so much. He had a c.d "The Heat" produced by his uncle codi. He also leaves his precious little brother Devon and his dog China. Raland never liked to see anyone unhappy, if he did he would give you a big smile that lit up the world. He attended SouthPort Middle School in Port Saint Lucie. He was the type of person that could get you to laugh when you were down. His goal in life was to become famous and grow up with his friends and family. I am proud to be his mother, I am even prouder that he is my son.
NOW YOU CAN GO TO WWW.MYSPACE.COM AND PULL UP RALAND'S NAME AND LEAVE HIS COMMENTS THERE TOO.
RALANDS GARDEN
WHEN IM DOWN AND NEED TO HEAR YOU I LISTEN TO YOUR VOICE MAIL SO I CAN HEAR YOUR VOICE. IVE ADDED TO YOUR AUDIO SECTION. I LOVE YOU MOMMY
TO THOSE THAT LIGHT CANDLES AND LEAVE TRIBUTES PLEASE KNOW THAT RALAND, DEVON AND I ARE GREATFUL TO YOU FOR HELPING TO KEEP HIM ALIVE. I APPRECIATE YOU ALL FOR ALWAYS TRYING TO KEEP ME STRONG.
The prayer: Father, I ask You to bless my friends, relatives and those I care deeply for, who are reading this right now. Show them a new revelation of Your love and power. Holy Spirit, I ask You to minister to their spirit at this very moment. Where there is pain, give them Your peace and mercy. Where there is self-doubt, release a renewed confidence through Your grace. Where there is need, I ask you to fulfill their needs. Bless their homes, families, finances, their goings and their comings. In Jesus' precious name. Amen.
Happy Birthday / Gail Beutjer (None)
I know your birthday is Monday. May you and the Lord have a wonderful day. Your Mom misses you soooo much. Hugs, Gail
wow / Amanda Hahn (sister/best friend )
Raland long time no talk my dude. I miss you so much nigga. lifes been crazy these past years, in and out of homes because of money, no job for bout a 1yr, moms put me in jail, christina caught some shit, crazy things man but i know i just keep my he...
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I Know Your Still Here With Us. / N/A N/A (N/A)
I wanted to post a comment because I also know whats its like to love someone with everything & to watch them leave us. Its hard, & i know that time doesnt heal everything, but just hang in there.. You all reading this, are good people. Good ...
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i AiNT 4GET BOUT U / DEVON EDGE (DAT WAS MAH B0O )
H3Y BO00O ..iiVE NVR 4GOT BOUt U.....N i KNO tHE DAY iiS COMiiN S0ON ..N ii WANT U 2 KNO {WHICH I KNOW U HEAR MAH PRAYERS}... THAT ii PRAY 4 U N UR FAMilY EVERYNiTE ...... i lUHV U RAYRAY ..4EVA N EVA ....iVE KNOWN U FOR 6ALMOST 7 YEARS N ...
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RALANDS 18TH BIRTHDAY. / SHELLEY (MOTHER)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SWEET ANGEL, ITS COLD OUT TODAY JUST LIKE THE DAY YOU WERE BORN. IN NEW YORK THERE WAS SNOW ON THE GROUND. YOU CAME AT 822 AM AND I WAS SO THRILLED TO SEE YOU, I HAD BEEN WAITING SO LONG FOR YOU TO COME AND CHANGE MY LIFE. AND ...
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RALAND R BROWN SCHOLARSHIP @ HOPE LUTHERAN CHURCH The Raland Rashad Brown Scholarship
I wanted to take this time to thank my church members for all of the years of donation to this scholarship fund. I also wanted to help each of you understand what it means each time you donate to the scholarship and help you understand why it was established.
Raland R Brown joined the church in 2003 and attended the 11 a.m. service. He was one of few children at that time to participate in the youth group and the confirmation classes. He loved to acolyte for this service. There was not a person Raland didn’t love to help not a person he wouldn’t smile at or give a good morning hug to. Raland loved the Lord and he loved his pastor.
In April 2005 Raland was shot and killed with a pellet gun and my church Hope Lutheran rallied around me and my son Devon Brown to help us cope with this great loss. One of the things I’m proudest of is that when Pastor Jared spoke of him he spoke from his heart from a child that he knew and had taken the time to teach what it meant to be a Lutheran because of this I know Raland went to be with our Lord.
The scholarship was established because there are so many other children like Raland that love to help and give of themselves and the church felt that we could keep Raland's memory alive by helping a child in our community get to college. More importantly we could help them to attain the skills needed to give back to our community to be a good Christian.
I wanted to take this time to ask that as a church we continue to give to this scholarship fund so that we continue to help a child get to college. I know that Raland would be very proud of his church because so often he reached out to help someone else even if it meant that it cost him something.
From my heart I want to deeply thank all of you that have read the many scholarships especially Marilyn Wheeler for all of her hard work on the scholarship. I have had the pleasure in most years of giving the scholarship and it has meant so much to me that my church family has taken the time to remember Raland because he was the first person that taught me how to LOVE.
“You cannot do a kindness too soon because you never know how soon it will be too late.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson
In Christ
Shelley Tillman
4th annual candle lighting ceremony Ok so here it is again the dreaded Holiday Season another one Ill have to get thru without all my children, but I would like to take the time to share with each of you what this last year has taught me and how in some ways it has made me stronger. The old saying " People enter your life for a reason, a season or a life time" is such a true statement. Those people that were here for a reason have taught me that love does exist and while it doesn't conquer all, true love from a spouse, a child, a parent, a sibling or a really good friend that you consider your family will sure help you get thru the bad days. Never take for granted the people you chose to surround yourself with and always ask what their presence adds to your life. People that truly love you will love you thru the good and the absolute worst times of your life and will never judge you and will be there to catch you when you fall. When the bad times hit a persons behavior will tell you alot about how they really feel about you and usually in times of trouble few people remain in your life after the smoke and dust have cleared. That brings me to the people who are here for a season, they have taught me that some seasons are long and that people come and go hopefully teaching you a lesson about life and how to distinguish friend from foe. Ive also learned that not all seasonal people are meant to take life's journey with you but in the trueness of Christianity we must learn to pray for and forgive those people that have impacted your life in a negative way. (I'm still working on that one, I'm getting better at it though). Those people that added something good to your life for the time they were in it must be thanked by sharing that same goodness with someone else. Pay it Forward. For the others Ive learned its ok to say hi and keep it moving, always be cordial and when silence is warranted trust me it always speaks volumes to those with a guilty conscience, because at the end of the day life is too short to waste a minute on people that bring nothing of value to the table. Finally this holiday season Ive learned that for a lifetime Raland will be my son and I'm grateful that although too short HE WAS HERE, HE LIVED LIFE, HE LOVED LIFE, HE LOVED MANY AND MOST IMPORTANTLY LOVED ME UNCONDITIONALLY, EVEN WHEN MESSED UP. 3 years 7months 26days has still not changed how he loves me or I love him, its only shown me that his love for me never died. Thank you Raland for the big teddy bear. Raland left a continuing lesson for us all, that each day should be lived as though its your last because tomorrow is not promised to any of us.This year is the 4th year I get to go to the Worldwide Annual Candle Lighting ceremony on Dec 14th at Indian Riverside memorial park in Jensen Beach, Fl. For those of you that don't know its a ceremony that parents like me light candles in memory of our children. We have had to learn to live with the loss of a child. The ceremony helps many to remember how important our children still are to us. It helps us find comfort in knowing we are not alone. We are survivors of the worst tragedy in the world. We must still set examples for our children for they are watching us, we must always try to do our best with the remainder of our time here in hopes that when leave our earthly bodies our children will be waiting for us. I have imagined Raland having so many stories for me about all that he has done with his time in Heaven. I never want him to be disappointed by my actions. ( I do fail but I always try and do better).I hope that each of you think of me and my family and say a prayer not just for us but for those parents that are going thru this same thing. When things go wrong always remember things could be so much worse .I too, have had to remember that I have a child here on earth that I have to live for, and there are many parents that have lost their only child and will be apart from them for the very 1st time this holiday season. I ask that you say a prayer for them. I say all of this to you because I know many cannot get to a Compassionate Friends Candle Lighting Ceremony because of distance or other things happening in your life but please follow the link in this email and light a candle for Raland. This site has been so instrumental in my healing because I never want Raland to be forgotten. Without him my life would have been so different. In this Holiday season take the time to smile, to laugh, to live and to love because our time here is short. You never know how your actions can affect a persons life. Sometimes an act of kindness means so much. I end this by saying I love you and thank you for the role you all have played in my life. I have learned many lessons and hope that you will allow me to keep learning. http://ralandbrown.memory-of.com/About.aspx
4/13/08 3 YEARS AGO TODAY HE WAS STOLEN FROM ME Raland Rashad Brown 2/16/90 - 4/13/05 Little did I know that I could have survived 3 years without you, but I have only because I know you are with me ALWAYS! I love and miss you more than words will ever tell. Loving you until we are together again! Mommy and family
DECEMBER 2007 RALANDS THIRD CANDLE LIGHTING Here it is again the annual candle lighting ceremony, my third one but I go so no one forgets, I go to cry and hopefully share my pain with other parents like me and it does let me know that I'm not alone and that helps me to heal.
Its held at the Indian Riverside National Park in Jensen Beach on December 9th at 6pm there you can light a candle for Raland, his picture will be shown. I wont lie its very emotional but I wanted everyone to know about it.
If you cannot make it please go to ralands website the link will be at the bottom of this email and light a candle for me in his memory. I would really mean alot to me.
I hope as this Holiday season approaches, we all never forget or neglect those we have around us, Its not hard to hug or kiss a friend or family member or even say I love you just because. We all need to cherish each other and be kind because we never know when our journey here will be complete. Please take the time to find the good in the people you choose to surround yourself with and make everyday a meaningful one.
I could be very bitter right now because my heart still hurts so much when I think of what I could have had with my son but he sent to me someone just like him not to take his place but to help me to live in this life until he and I can be together again. I have learned to laugh again, to smile again and to Love again....
People enter your life for a reason, a season and a time all teaching you lessons good and bad and I have learned that we all must reflect and appreciate what we have right this second because you just never know... I have also learned to say that many of you have impacted my life in such a way that when I think of you individually I can appreciate the people you were and the people you've become. so Thank you for being a part of my life.
I hope this holiday season finds you all in prosperous spirits and in love with God and those closest to you.
From my family to yours Happy Holidays!!!
April 13, 2007
Today I spent the day with my son missing him with all my heart but this time I was able to smile and laugh to my self because of the wonderful times we shared. I was even able to talk about the things I really miss about Raland.
Raland has left me the duty to make sure he is remembered by all who loved him. Raland touched many by being a listener comforter and protector. I am his mother and he did many things to protect me. He is still doing it today. Because of him I can stand proud and strong and on the days I need to fall he has made sure that he and many others are there to pick me up. For that I am so proud and honored to be his mother.
We should all use this as an example to be there for each other!!
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